This message is to my birth mother

I want you to know one thing, that is THANK YOU for my life.

I have searched and have found.
I know my father, your one night stand.
I know your son, my brother.
I know your brother, my Uncle.
I know your grandkids, my niece and nephew.
I know A LOT of things, of which others do not.
It's OUR little secret. I promise not to tell.

I know that i will never know you because you can't seem to come to terms with the past demons you hold within you. I can't say that i understand because i don't. But because of who i am i can let it be. I feel it is your loss. Not only do you have a daughter who would love to be a friend to you but you have a granddaughter who would love to know her grandmother.

Know that i have had a good life. My adoptive parents were very good to me.

I pray that someday you will give me the chance to tell you thank you in> But if that day never comes, remember that i I LOVE YOU, THANK YOU, and God Bless, and you are always in my thoughts. I have no hard feelings.

Always your daughter in spirit and soul,

Baby Girl~ March 1969

To whoever the brave woman was.....

Thank you.

I pray that you are well. I pray that you are comforted by the knowledge that your sacrifice has allowed me to grow up in a family that was able to support me.

I hope that you were able to go on and have a family of your own. I am thankful that you did not choose an easier way.

I know so little of you, or your world. I believe you were at University, and being a pregnant student at Uni with your life before you must have been a chore.

I am thankful that you choose to give me my life, and I want you to know that I do not judge you, or your decision. I imagine that your handing me over to another was one of the hardest things you ever had to do.

Were you ever even allowed to hold me? I do not know.

I do know that my mother (the one who adopted me) has loved me. Things have not always been easy, (as they are not for anyone) but she has loved me. You would have been pleased. 

I pray that if you read these words they might be a comfort to you.

I have never sought you out, but have been content to respect your decision. My info is posted in a few places, in case you should have ever come to need to know.

I am content to live in the knowledge of who I am. I am the sum of the experiences I have lived, and the choices I have made.

Some are good, others not, but I cannot regret them for I am them, and they are me.

I hope you do not regret your choice, for I do not.

Please know that the little one you gave life to, has lived it.

Thank you.